Saturday, 15 April 2017

For you. . .

I'm the endless stretch of land...
My soul is like the wanderer...
Wandering in the desert sands...
Bathing under the golden heat...
Searching for you ...
Seeking you as one desires for an oasis...

It waits for you...

Waiting...
Waiting till the morning sun sets and the sky turns dark...

It hopelessly yearns...
As the lake remains still to gaze the beautiful silver moon...

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I am the seashore
And you are the waves, 
I long to meet... 

I see you hurry,  but you fall... 
And every time you rise, 
You rush passing each hurdle... 
And we cling,  though for a moment... 
And I drench in you... 
Soaking every drop of you before you return and leave me lone... 

I could wait a thousand years... 
For you a million times... 

I will wait for you... 
You are near,  but far... 
So dear to my heart... 
Close like the heartbeat ...
Far as the twinkling stars... 
Miles away,  apart from me... 

I search for you in the deep dark... 
We are two,  but one in heart... 

For you a million times... 

I look up silently and cry... 
I wish we could meet 
And stay close forever... 

I wait for you...
Dying each day without you... 
I long for you... 
As the deserts long for rain... 

I desire you.... 
You are my dream.... 
I wish you were mine. 
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Tuesday, 21 March 2017

She's a Secret

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She was an art... 
Not all could fathom her beauty. 

She was a book... 
A story not for all to understand. 

She might appeal to some as ordinary... 
But she was a soul with hidden depths...

Her thoughts were like raindrops 
Pouring down from heaven... 

She hides in her secret garden... 
Hard for anyone to ever find...

Her fragrance envelopes around the delicate green bushes... 
She is fragile, but she is a beauty with a stubborn heart... 

She is misunderstood often by many, 
But there are few,  but they are few... 

But the few... 

The few... 
Who can see beyond her smiling face... 

There are million secrets a face hides. 

She is but a secret... 
A secret untold... 
Secret that one promises to keep... 

Secret buried within one soul. 

If you desire to meet her.. 
There is a promise you must keep... 

Promise without a lie... 
And you can keep her until you die... 

She is not a myth, 
But truth is visible in her eyes. 

She is hope dancing in the palest aquamarine robes... 
Her soft honey brown curls swaying along... 

She is indeed a symphony... 
A treasure bringing great peace and delight. 

She is a mystery... 
But guard her with your life. 

 If you really wish to meet her... 
She hides in her secret garden, 
Hard for anyone to ever find. 

Remember to keep the promise... 
She's a secret... 

A secret...  never to be told.


Sunday, 8 January 2017

Midnight Musings

He stood silent... Staring ahead the charcoal blanket full of tiny stars twinkling brightly in the dark sky. The silver crescent moon hung over the horizon. 


He closed his eyes and gasped, then drew the pale curtains over the windows.
The room fell quiet and dark, only the dim moonlight that streamed in through the window, made it bit comforting, though, it did not fail to appeal like a haunting dark dungeoun. 

The place smelled like aged wallpaper, rust and somewhat of coffee beans.

Soon the thick dark clouds hid the crescent silver moon... The lake remained calm and still, as the glimpse of the beautiful silvery moon was overcast from view.... 

The leaves ruffled by slow breeze, the rats squeaked in their little holes, nibbling the bits of food, the owl settled on a thick branch of a tree... 


It was dark, one would be afraid of even their own shadow... The bats were the only noisiest mammals outside in such dark.... 


The silent midnight hour, when the world falls in slumber, deafened to the outside chaos and noise... 

While some struggle alone in the unpleasant dark, left bruised, abandoned and hurting...  Some hearts grieving in silence, unheard, unseen...
Weeping in their loneliness... Unnoticed...

He stooped a little, his silver teacup was lying near his favourite velvet cushioned chair, he bent low to pick it up.

Why was he still awake so late? A man in late 60s, silver grey hairs, wrinkled loose skin, searching a cup in the dark...
He lowered himself to pick the cup, the chain on his neck touched the floor, the silver cross on his chain beamed as the moonlight fell on it.
He smiled, a content smile of relief, as he picked the cup and stared the cross.

"Somethings meant to occur..." He mumbled quietly and reclined on a chair near his desk .

A burgundy color diary was kept on his desk, he lit the lamp and the fluorescent light beamed in the dingy room.
He held his smile, the gentle, warm smile of knowing. . . . knowing certain things...

He was a retired priest, silver haired man, with thoughtful grey eyes, who treasured the wisdom sought under the sun. Lived as an interested audience, watching various dramas of life unfold before him. A keen observer of life, of things... Of the peculiar, little things, that many would fail to notice. Only now, with old age holding him in its clutch, he found himself increasingly critical of the drama submitted to him.

The night was frigid and still. The houses in the neighborhood loomed huge and imposing, and most people's porch lights were already off for the night.

He closed his eyes and gasped.

And then began scribbling in his diary...

"Everything in his time"

. . . Still carrying that smile, his mind busy in musings...

"We sit with our lives in the wrinkles of our fists, unable to comprehend or understand ourselves.

Sombre, dreary mortals...

Breathing...
Time, passing away with our breaths... Moments fleeting from us with a blink...

Beyond our will or power...

Absolute certainties crumble to dust.

All the metaphors cannot truly describe Life..."

He shut his eyes and pondered deeply.

"The weights that bring us down... Hold back our empty hearts..."

He paused and stared the withered sunflower kept in a vase on his table.

"Sometimes... But not sometimes...

It is always, worth the fight.

For One Day...

All that seemed far away, visible from a distance...
Will become clear...

The blurry ... Glimpse of that something familiar...
Something we had often known... All along...
Something known to our subconscious ... To our hearts...

Something...
Our beating hearts never forgot to remind...

Something whispered as a wish though agreed with a frail heart...

(Image Credits: rashadifoundation.org)

And Then the magical thing... 

Something ..  Meant to occur ... 
As purposed... 

The gossamer thread belief one clungs to for so long... Even when the strength was gone... Amidst the rough and overwhelming trails...
Yet one hung onto it.... The shimmery gossamer thread of faith in the dark..."

He paused his gaze fell at the Sacred Heart image of Christ on his wall. 
He took a long breath, held his pen and continued.

" Resign not to fate...  It shall come to pass."

The room was silent. A long tail flickered. Two eyes glowed yellow. A cat scampered stealthily across the room.

"Kitty, my lovely fluffy cat... " He smiled broadly. 
He closed the burgandy diary and looked at the clock. 
"Time for bed..." The cat purred slowly. 

"Sleep.. (Walked lowering his head) will never be worthy of the dreams we dare to touch."
(Image Credits: flvrkids.com)
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Wednesday, 30 November 2016

Dariya... <3

Tu dariya.... Aur me raahi...
Teri meri hai ek daasta...
Tujh me hi hai manzil .....
Tujh bin na koi raasta....

Ha khudgarz hun....
Tujhe pana chahta hun saara....

Tu dariya...Meri chahat...
Mein raahi hun tera kinara...

Dhal jata hun me tujhme yun...
Jese suraj aasman ki baahon me....

Tu dariya.... Meri aarzu...
Tu dard...
Tu hi chain...

Tu intezar.... Mein inteminan ...

Tu barish ki madham bondey...
Mein khamosh tera kinara....

Tu dariya... Aur me raahi...
Teri meri adhuri daastan...

Tu sham tha...
Tu hi savera....

Kabhi sath tha...
Thi nazdeikieya....

Ab tu judaa hai....
Jane kyu hai ye faasla....

Sun dariya...Yun doorie yu na bada...

Tu dariya.... Mera intezar....
Har pal tu hai ..Har lamha.....

Tu Dariya.... Meri pyaas....

Bhigaa hai tu mere aansuon se....
Ab doobne de muje dariya ....
Doobne de mujhe dariya....

By - Sybil Samuel

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Wednesday, 20 July 2016

Till we meet again... Part~2

                                PART ~ 2

                                             (Image credits: Imgfave)

The cool morning breeze ruffled Sam's hair... He removed his loafers and decided to stride barefoot on the damp beach sands...

The sun glittered a blushing pink & orange across the horizon...

He turned his gaze towards the beaming morning sun, his eyes closed, he sighed deeply...

The foamy sea waves came chasing the shores, he half smiled as they touched him and left his feet wet... 

He soon realized someone was watching him. From the corner of his left eye, his mind could impress an image of a girl, standing, staring him from a distance.

He turned, his pulse racing now... His lips parted,he stared unblinking... The familiar light lavender fragrance wafted through his nose... She looked familiar too... He tried to call her name but his lips wouldn't work.

She suddenly turned. Sam walked towards her but paused, he noticed someone approaching her, a tall guy, his eyes beaming bright, smiling at her... Sam's heart began to pound as he saw his fingers laced through hers, their eyes were locked... he leaned in to kiss...

"No..." Sam felt like he was choking. "Jenny..." He tried hard but no sound came, his lips quivered... He stood gasping, breathing heavily... The floor had suddenly fallen out from under his feet... 


He screamed loudly "Jenny..." 


"Jenny..." He awoke from the dream and sat on the edge of his bed. Still gasping, his forehead damp with sweat... 

"Hell... Horrible Nightmare..." 

7.55 am he glanced at his Rado and quickly picked out a tie to match his navy blue blazer. His dark hairs neatly combed, shirt looked freshly ironed, Sam was athletic build, as impressive as his power dressing, a hardworking ant, too charming yet he maintained a low profile for himself. 


He reclined on one of the dining chairs, his mind distracted by the dream... He looked anxious, a bit tensed... It was too painful to think about the past.


He sat in silence and turned the fork in his hands. "You seem lost?!"- His mother touched his shoulders and sat on a chair beside him.

"No... I'm here..." -- he turned towards her and replied.


"Hmm... I'm really worried for you"-- his mother slowly muttered, her brows creased.

Sam coiled the pasta around his fork and took a big bite.

"Mom... You don't have to." 

Suddenly a gruffy noise echoed in the hall. The four pawed, dark chocolate Labrador barked and entered the hall...

(Image credits: Instagram)   

Sam's countenance lit up, "Rover" --he exclaimed in joy.
Sam patted his head and he kept wagging his tail. He placed his paws on Sam and waited... panting warm breaths and drooling, "No I'm getting late..." Sam complained, "Okay" he patted him and threw his keys to the far corner of the hall, 'Rover' quickly ran to fetch...

"I forgot to mention. We have guests visiting us tonight. I want you home at 7p.m" --his mother spoke, usually a meek, warm hearted, pleasant looking woman, who'd fulfill his Son's every wish... this time she stood up crossed her arms and watched Sam sternly.

Sam grabbed the keys, Rover clinched between his teeth and walked towards the door.

"Urggh... I don't think you need me." Sam groaned.

"If you love your mom..." She insisted, appearing firm.

"Alright... I'll be back (he paused to ponder) ... Umm.. 7.30 pm "and waved her goodbye.


(Image credits: Imgfave) 


7.40 p.m: Rover ran and threw his forelimbs over Sam, soon as he saw him park the Volkswagen and walk towards the door.
Sam threw his keys in air and watched 'Rover' jump excitedly to grab it. "Woah... Rover, only getting better" he patted him. 

"Never seen someone so happy before their decree of execution... Ah!" --Joe walked towards Sam and greeted his elder brother.

"What..?"-- Sam stood puzzled.

"I doubted! Don't tell me you didn't know who's coming?" Joe replied staring his brother amused.

"Who..?"-- Sam quickly snapped.
"Who else, it's our Matchmaking Aunt" Joe teased and playfully elbowed his brother.

"Oh... No!" Sam shut his eyes and groaned.

"Traitor. Why didn't you inform earlier?" Sam punched Joe's arm.

"Her Highness commanded... You're trapped... Just have a look, she's damn pretty, Bro... You'll like her. I bet!" -- He winked mischievously and pulled Sam inside the hall.

"Joe... don't"--Sam sounded exasperated.

The living room was brightly lit, walls were decorated in peach tones, old paintings of relatives hung over the walls, cream cushioned couches were set up and heavy silk curtains were drawn to the windows.

Sam's mother quickly stood up and grabbed his arms to introduce him to the guests, "Here he is, my handsome son Sam." She announced beaming brightly.
Sam frowned at her and lowered his eyes.

The mingling smells of fried appetizers and sauce filled in room... 

Sam's eyes widened... The familiar, faint lavender fragrance, was impossible for Sam to miss, it wafted through his nose...

He looked up and stared at the beaming faces of the guests.

His heart began to pound...

He gasped. His sore eyes stared unblinking... How could he not recognize!

In the back of his mind, he'd somehow known... They would meet again...
And here she was. Alive. Staring straight at him.

Her heart sped up even more...

"Jenny..."-- he whispered, his voice hardly audible.

Jenny and Sam stared each other for static filled moments, in silence...
Their eyes met... Sam froze, his heart raced, he stood barely breathing...

"Maybe we must allow them to converse a little..."-- Sam's aunt cleared her throat and posed an awkward smile.

"Told you..." Joe whispered in Sam's ear and playfully elbowed him.



(Image credits: Imgfave)

The Moon hung in the clear night sky and the stars appeared close enough to reach out and touch.

Jenny followed Sam across the lush green lawns, they stopped near the dangling rose branches... 
Silence hung between them for a long moment... But the silence wasn't a barren one. It was filled with many questions longing for answers.

They exchanged uneasy glances...

"If I knew..." -- Jenny finally spoke then rolled her eyes.

She looked like she wanted to say something, but closed her mouth tightly.

Sam dared to look up. 

Jenny's silky, dark hair brushed against her cheeks. She wore a beautiful pink, fine embroidered chudidaar suit.

Sam stared admiringly... Inhaling the sweet, sugary perfume fragrance mingled with the smell of her favorite strawberry gloss.

"Jenny..."-- he hesitated, but continued, lowering his head...

"I feel terrible about what I did." He stammered. "I don't know... I'm sorry... But please know that everyday I've felt terrible about it since it happened." His voice filled with emotions of the memory. "And life without you..." He paused, tears filling his eyes... "is even more terrible." 

Jenny stared quietly, her heart paced... Her lips parted slightly. 
Even today, a big part of her still couldn't believe it happened.

The corners of her eyes were wet. But she crossed her arms and turned away from Sam. A door in her mind slammed closed again. Her anger was pushing her towards NO... She shrugged her shoulders and decided to walk inside.

"Jenny... " he grabbed her hand, his wet eyes pleading with her... "I won't let you leave me and walk away this time." 

Her heart thudding hard, she tried fighting back tears...

He held her hand firm and stared, barely breathing... 

They stared each other in silence. Tears falling, rolling down their cheeks...

"I've missed you..." Sam said quietly.

Tears streamed down her face... "I've missed you, too..." Her voice thick with sobs.

She collapsed into Sam's arms... He gently caressed her hairs and buried his face on her neck.


"So... They meet again..." -- Joe gasped, then drew back the curtains and passed that know-it-all smile to his aunt who stood beside her.


(Image credits: Imgfave)

~Finito.The End~

~ BELIEVE IN THE MAGIC OF LOVE ~

By~Sybil Samuel
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Monday, 11 July 2016

Till we meet again...

PART ~1
(Image credits: Imgfave)

Sam moved towards the window, it was late already... The whole office fell silent, as everyone finished their work for the day, and left the place, spilling as light beams to different directions...

He peeled the curtains aside to view outside... Gasped and drew out his iPhone.
His eyes unblinking... He saw something, his heart beating faster... He scrolled the texts desperately of 'Alumni Batch 2012' group on WhatsApp... His eyes caught the name, yes he saw it, he tried to convince himself. He sighed... drew a deeper breath... "Jenny".

"Jenny..." His heart raced... 
There were few conversations in group about Jenny.
"Jenny & Sam..." Ex flames... Cutest pair!

Sam stood in silence... He pushed back his iPhone on his office desk and rested himself on the chair.
He closed his eyes, and sat silently in the quiet office building. Outside the window, the dim crescent silver Moon that hung in the inky skies, hid behind the dark clouds...

Sam glanced at his watch, its 9p.m; he picked his files and laptop and packed up his work.

A flash of forked lightning and a clap of thunder close upon each other...

It began to pour heavily; he crouched inside his Volkswagen and drove for home. Sheets of cold rain pounded on the roof of Sam's Volkswagen... He suddenly rolled his car to a stop.

'Jenny's favorite cafe' he still remember the place... He stopped for a hot cup of coffee... 

The room smelled irresistibly of Vanilla, Cocoa and pastries... Sam settled himself on a chair, near the entrance door.

A young couple sat opposite him, sharing a molten chocolate cake... The girl leaned her face closer to the boy, whispering something in his ears and smiling, later resting her head on his shoulders, her soft curls falling over her heart shape face...

Sam turned to gaze outside the window, it was still pouring out... 

He sipped the mocha and stared outside absently, his heart sinking as he watched the raindrops dripping from the cherry red cafe roof... 

He glanced at an image on his iPhone, an image that brought back distant memories... a solitary teardrop leaked from the corner of his eye... It was a shard of memory that pierced his heart... He clung to the image, tried to call her name, but his lips wouldn't work. The memory reel was rolling forward, out of his grasp... 

His eyes filled with tears, he lowered his head, closed his eyes and gasped.... 

*Flashback*

(Image credits:Instagram)

Sam sat alone sipping the coke greedily in the college canteen. "Hey..." few minutes later Jenny joined him, she was holding a pink pamphlet in her hand, "Did you read this?" - She pointed her turquoise blue painted nails at the pamphlet, gesturing to Sam... 
"Hmm.." - he simply nodded and sipped his coke. Jenny leaned closer, her mouth so close that Sam could smell her strawberry lip gloss. "And... We are joining..."- she chirped. "NO..." Sam didn't seem convinced with the idea...
"Sammy..." Jenny stood up, and wrapping her arms around his shoulders, kissed his cheeks...
Sam first shoke his head as a 'No', then playfully slapped her hand, her bracelets rattled...
"Only for you..." - he spoke, finally agreeing.
"Valentines Day Party... college event like never before... " Sam read the pink leaflet to himself, as Jenny left with her friends for shopping.

Fairy lights were strewn around the Entrance... A banner hung above the door, in sparky, glittering red letters, "Valentines Day Party" ... Heart shaped balloons were visible everywhere in the campus... Heat lamps were set up along the walls making it feel cozy... 
The room inside smelled a mix of various perfumes and make-up... 
The DJ cranked some awesome music, as young pairs holding hands, danced under the Disco lights spiraling above their heads.

Jenny flipped her hairs over her shoulder, they were perfectly blow dried, her skin looked glowing, she wore a fitted red cocktail dress and high, strappy  heels to match the look... 

A rush of warm air greeted her as she swept inside the campus. Her cell phone suddenly bleated... *Text from an unknown number* Jenny stared the screen unblinking, for a long moment... Her heart lurched; suddenly her skin began to fade from pink to pale... She gasped and let out a small groan.
The image attached with the text message, seemed branded on the back of her eyelids. She tightened her fists and walked inside...

Sam danced hugging a girl under the oscillating spotlights; he wore a gorgeous black suit... The alcohol had definitely gone to Sam's head. He hugged her thin waist and danced as Alicia Keys blasted over the stereo... Unaware of 12 missed calls from Jenny.

Jenny watched helplessly, the disco lights reflected off her shimmery eye shadow. 

She was so angry that her teeth began to chatter.

Sahil and his friends laughed, clicking their glasses and high fived each other, standing at an acute distance...

Jenny pulled the two apart, "Jenny... " Sam stammered... Before he could even blink, Jenny slapped him hard, her hand making a loud sound against his cheeks.

The slow song now playing in background seemed agonizing.. Sam froze. He watched silently as Jenny whirled away and left, pushing the gasping and glaring party crowd...


Sam's iPhone buzzed, breaking the silence.

He looked around, his eyes wet... The cafe was empty and silent...

It was 10.11 p.m, he stirred the engine to life and drove home.
(Image credits: Imgfave)

Story continues in Part ~2 .... 

Sunday, 26 June 2016

End this Pain...


Rohan sat beside a desk, appearing melancholic, his deep dark eyes looked dull, and anxious, his cheeks tears streaked... still fresh, hot, tears were rolling down his face, his hairs awry, his mind sinking, somersaulting in a myriad of emotions... 

He closed his eyes and gasped.

And then began scribbling in the diary pages... He stopped for a while, looked towards the window, his eyes distant, staring ahead, memories rushed to his mind...

*Flashback*
"Papa look I cleared the Entrance exam for IIT" - Rohan exclaimed with joy, clenching a printed page of result.
"Bravo! That's my Son..." Tears of joy leaked from the corners of Rohan's father's eyes... He embraced his son and placing both hands on his shoulders, spoke, swelling with a certain pride, " My son will become a successful engineer. " " Promise me, you'll fulfill your Papa's dream." 
"Yes Papa, I promise" and Rohan hugged his father affectionately...

 The diary pages began fluttering by the slow breeze... 
Rohan retraced back to the present... He wiped the tears from cheeks with his palms, and continued writing...

"Sorry Papa...  I'm really sorry"

His stomach felt sick, the ugly, haunting memories, suddenly clenched their grip, clouded above him... The vague, dreadful, blurry images played trick on his mind....

"Ahhh.... " He screamed in anguish, placing his palms over his ears, covering them from the hissing, hateful noises and whispers... 

He picked up the family photograph which was kept upon his desk, hugged it for a long while and sobbed...
His dad, squarer build, a quiet always content, yet hardworking person,smiling at him through the photograph, his mother a petite, pretty looking woman standing beside his father and Rohan, only fifteen then, lanky, wrapping his arms around father and smiling broadly... 

He stared at the photograph silently... Embraced it longer, one last time, and placed it back on the wooden desk.

The room felt unusually quiet... His room seemed so silent and empty, yet the presence inside felt strangely heavier.

Out of the window, a flock of birds, flapped their wings swiftly and flew from the roof... As if fleeing something terrifying to come...

Rohan slowly stood up... something fell from the desk, he hardly noticed he dropped the pen. He was no longer conscious of anything...

He gasped.
Hanging from the hook in the ceiling... A rope with a noose all ready. And a chair to stand upon-- a chair that could be kicked away...

Rohan moved forward... His eyes staring ahead blankly like a sleepwalker's...
He climbed upon the chair, his hands were cold and shaky... He adjusted the noose round his neck.
Tears rolled down his face, as he shut his eyes... He sighed briefly... And then kicked away the chair.


"I Quit..."  The diary pages still kept fluttering...

He sat curled up, gripping his knees to his chest tightly. Frozen and numb... Staring absently ahead... Tears rolling down his face.
His wife sat beside her Son's lifeless body, and wept continually... She cried loud and bitterly with hiccups... 

Someone placed a consoling arm around Rohan's father and picked him up. They walked outside and stood in a quiet corner. "We are sorry about what happened." He took a deep, long breath  then continued, "No names were mentioned in the note. We can press charges for harassment and continue further investigation... If you will." 
Rohan's father stood silent, his eyes still wet... He looked at the policeman, then stared the diary for a while. He opened his mouth to speak, but no words came out. 
He simply nodded, in silence.

"Sorry Papa... I'm really sorry" He ran his fingers across the diary page, feeling the letterings...
"Rohan..." He cried, holding the diary closer to his chest... 

"I Quit..." He kept staring the two words, and tears remained streaming down, falling on the pages...

"I Quit..."


*Disclaimer:
It is a work of fiction, inspired by real life issues. The Characters, events or incidences are the imagination of the writer. Any resemblance to any character, event or incidence is purely coincidental.
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//The Goodbyes//

  They never told us how difficult a goodbye could be... When you see your loved ones  waving behind the entry point, trying hard not to cry...